Early morning boredom

Hola. It's super fucking early! I'm up just chilling out and started thinking....I have a friend who likes to be friends and tries to pick up our dropped relationship when she so pleases...this really bothers me for many reasons. One reason is I hate on again, off again, friendships. Another reason is that she uses bullshit excuses for why she doesn't try to keep our relationship how it was. And somehow it's my fault. I've put in more than enough effort to try maintaining our friendship and it's failed each time. I wish I could tell her to go away, but there's a small child that I love with all my heart to keep in consideration and I dont wanna lose her from my life. Blah random thoughts and angry typing. kthxbai